Jaane is safar mein aisa kya hua hai?
Mere hain kadam aur tera raasta hai...
Dard judai ka is dil mein bharke...
Dhundenge tujhko raahon mein phirse...
Tere bin soona soona laage...
Jag mujhe soona soona laage...
Tujhko dhundengi yeh aankhein..
Na ja zindagi mein aake...
I feel totally choked without him...and especially after yesterday evening, I have lost all clues in their entirety. It was one 15th October repeated again. Why, how I don't know. All I got to know is...his feelings are still the same...
Then is it really possible that he doesn't love me at all? Today we talked for a long time. I was telling him how, in my worst crisis period...all I used to do was to chant God's name. During that engineering admission time, even recently...it helps me regain the faith in God.
He gave a very queer reaction. I was telling this, and then went on to say, but I don't follow rituals, I don't do it like a routine...and he said, oh that I also don't do. Nobody in my family does it...you don't have to worry about it...
Then again he drifted to strange talks...ohh no one can give happiness, no one can take it away, it comes and goes. You cannot work towards your happiness. A man drinks to be happy and causes his wife sorrow.
I protested thoroughly. Oh Boo...wherefrom do you get your ideas? If a husband and wife decide to drink together...to celebrate their anniversary and get high, nobody is upset. If a wife is upset with her husband's drinking habits, she doesn't have convincing abilities on her husband...the problem lies elsewhere.
Then I went on to tell him...Boo...last evening happened, because we worked towards it. When in the morning I said, I want to say bye to you...you said I can do that in the evening. And then I called you, you said you are coming back, I asked if we can go together, you said, you'll see...
He said he'll drop me on the way, then he went on driving...and he suddenly asked for a pen drive, I was adamant that I have to search for it, he should come and sit inside for that time. He tried to deny but finally gave in. I said, don't worry, I won't touch you. He chuckled...do I need to worry about that? Perhaps my pain showed, that it has come to this :)
I went on to tell him...how it was there all the time in our sub conscious. We got our happiness, because we worked together with the aim of reaching it. Yesterday evening...I slept like I was drunk and drugged. I couldn't take so much happiness in myself...
I did a thing very lovingly today. I ate curd rice. Took a second helping. I don't have enough words to express how much I want this to work out. If only I'd get some help.
Mere hain kadam aur tera raasta hai...
Dard judai ka is dil mein bharke...
Dhundenge tujhko raahon mein phirse...
Tere bin soona soona laage...
Jag mujhe soona soona laage...
Tujhko dhundengi yeh aankhein..
Na ja zindagi mein aake...
I feel totally choked without him...and especially after yesterday evening, I have lost all clues in their entirety. It was one 15th October repeated again. Why, how I don't know. All I got to know is...his feelings are still the same...
Then is it really possible that he doesn't love me at all? Today we talked for a long time. I was telling him how, in my worst crisis period...all I used to do was to chant God's name. During that engineering admission time, even recently...it helps me regain the faith in God.
He gave a very queer reaction. I was telling this, and then went on to say, but I don't follow rituals, I don't do it like a routine...and he said, oh that I also don't do. Nobody in my family does it...you don't have to worry about it...
Then again he drifted to strange talks...ohh no one can give happiness, no one can take it away, it comes and goes. You cannot work towards your happiness. A man drinks to be happy and causes his wife sorrow.
I protested thoroughly. Oh Boo...wherefrom do you get your ideas? If a husband and wife decide to drink together...to celebrate their anniversary and get high, nobody is upset. If a wife is upset with her husband's drinking habits, she doesn't have convincing abilities on her husband...the problem lies elsewhere.
Then I went on to tell him...Boo...last evening happened, because we worked towards it. When in the morning I said, I want to say bye to you...you said I can do that in the evening. And then I called you, you said you are coming back, I asked if we can go together, you said, you'll see...
He said he'll drop me on the way, then he went on driving...and he suddenly asked for a pen drive, I was adamant that I have to search for it, he should come and sit inside for that time. He tried to deny but finally gave in. I said, don't worry, I won't touch you. He chuckled...do I need to worry about that? Perhaps my pain showed, that it has come to this :)
I went on to tell him...how it was there all the time in our sub conscious. We got our happiness, because we worked together with the aim of reaching it. Yesterday evening...I slept like I was drunk and drugged. I couldn't take so much happiness in myself...
I did a thing very lovingly today. I ate curd rice. Took a second helping. I don't have enough words to express how much I want this to work out. If only I'd get some help.
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