মন তোমাকে ছুঁয়ে দিলাম...

I am finally done with my research. Research as in, picking up his scraps from that elaborate dump and arranging them chronologically. I have always been fond of solving jigsaw puzzles. Dad got me one from the book fair when I was a kid. It was a virtual national park, with lots of animals, greenery, mountains with clouds above. I like arranging things and getting the big picture. Hence this research. And the picture I get from it tells me all the more that I must die. There's no other go. The damage done is irreversible. And it's all because of my shortsighted, whimsical and terribly stupid mind.

I also realized that little is precious. If I had too many memories of him, yards of chat logs, I wouldn't have appreciated it the way I do it now. These few sentences, all from his end. I don't even remember my side, or have any way of guessing, except one or two conjectures. But read this and you'd know why this man is my poetry...

4 May 2007 18:19
going on. you?

20 May 2007 12:14
the photo's quite good.. just that if you'd have been cropped from the middle it'd look even better

2 June 2007 20:51
good news.. hope both are well

3 June 2007 14:19
what's your condition?? done with your love shuv or what? it's past your marriage age..your friends have become fathers and mothers and you... :-(

3 June 2007 18:14
don't talk rubbish... when are you getting married?

4 June 2007 22:59
age is going to be a score and a half .. why then?.. now except for a toothless and cataract-eyed person you won't get anyone else .. jump for it

5 June 2007 23:09
quite grown up now.. looking for a guy

6 June 2007 22:51
hm.. when are you coming back to the country??

9 June 2007 15:42
do your work do your work

9 June 2007 16:34
no.. she's at home.. seen my daughter's photo?

9 June 2007 16:48
(his daughter's name)

9 June 2007 16:58
I also forgot that I told you

9 June 2007 16:58
getting old as well gradually

16 June 2007 19:19
hm.. know how to cook on your own?

17 June 2007 12:26
do do .. but you must provide the flight fare (round trip)

17 June 2007 15:57
when are you back??

19 June 2007 22:54
get married you'd feel good

19 June 2007 01:35
23rd june 2007..my country .. feels damn good to simply think about it

24 June 2007 00:47
oh damn my flight got cancelled.. came back again from the airport.. 27th early morning I am returning

24 June 2007 21:20
dammit I was jumping to go to a foreign country??.. when?? whom are you confusing me with??.. i have to delete this scrap..

28 June 2007 06:18
kolkata.. atlast

21 July 2007 19:15
waiting

26 July 2007 05:42
me too means?.. this is a reply to?

27 de July 2007 11:44
your intelligence has grown right? that will do

3 August 2007 11:38
when are you getting married?

17 August 2007 10:35
you died or what?

19 August 2007 19:44
come back come back .. not only to see my daughter .. to get your own culmination

Note: I have done word to word translation, retaining original words, style and punctuation as much as possible...