সর্বময়... Omnipresent!

আমাদের বাড়িতে এখনও তোর কথা কত চলে ভাব... সব বাড়িতে লক্ষ্মী পুজো হল আজ, আমাদের বাড়িতে হবে কাল - সূর্যোদয় না হলে নাকি তিথি হয়না!

যাক সে কথা - এবারের পুজোটা বড় ভালো কাটলো... সবচেয়ে আনন্দ পেয়েছি পুজোর কাজ করতে পেরে - সপ্তমী, অষ্টমী দুইদিন, নবমী-দশমী একইদিনে পড়েছিল, ‌ ওদিন সকালে শরীরটা খারাপ হল... আসলে সকালে ওঠার অভ্যাসটাই চলে গেছে...

But the most amazing thing was that all these four - five days I never felt lonely or scared or gloomy or apprehensive, way I do almost all the time otherwise. I was free as a lark, devoted and happy. একদম "আনন্দধারা বহিছে ভুবনে"... I was as if all set to lap up every bit of it... I was wondering - for someone like me who lives at the edge of life (to think in a sane way, how little of life I have - a job that might go anytime, and no future generation to speak of - as if there's only today to live in)...but still - what grandeur of existence I felt in these few days... I can't explain...I am practical and I do wonder that if God does exist then why is there so much grief and injustice - and then in the presence of God I forget that question! 

To sum it all up, ফিরে দেখা, looking back, and at the same time looking forward to...some more divine happiness like this - may be I am finally discovering what life is all about? What I was two years back, may be I'd again become two years later, but in between, as on this day, that I had fully recovered and reunited with my childhood self, no fear, no regret, no disappointment - that in itself is God's grace and my triumph.